With as many issues as there are to be enthusiastic about, it appears there are such a lot of issues to even be nervous about. I assume it’s a harder level proper now as a result of nobody is aware of we’re anticipating, and I don’t actually have anybody to speak to about it. It feels good to sort, and at the very least really feel like somebody is listening to me, and somebody could also be feeling the identical anxious power about the identical factor.
I have my first physician’s appointment tomorrow, and am simply praying to listen to that little heartbeat. I was beginning to get anxious about discovering out whether or not every thing is wholesome/regular and I realized two issues: M) worrying doesn’t change something, and a couple of) the worrying by no means actually goes away. When Liv was born, it was a little bit of a scary second as a result of the twine was wrapped and we needed to get her instantly to oxygen. When she was lastly snuggled in my chest, and I noticed that certainly, she was a gorgeous, good, wholesome child, it’s not like that sigh of aid was when the fear stopped. It was actually simply starting. I fear about her ALL the time. Now, I’ll have another person to fret about, and care about, and love a lot that my coronary heart can’t take it. And that’s one thing to be so very enthusiastic about. A